◎夏慕聰

這是一個恢復戰力的修復過程。
後二十代,我可以同時寫三部小說的連載。年紀增長,經歷了人事物許多的考驗後,書寫速度愈來愈慢,慢到讓周圍關心的朋友也在頻頻詢問,我不再寫小說了或者擔心讀者會忘記夏慕聰是誰了。但我一直就抱著沒關係慢慢來,一步一步踏穩踏實來。事情總會選在最正確的時間點發生。
肉書《軍犬II》(以下使用肉書簡稱),開始寫第一回是在2012一二事変的某一個夜晚,我已經忘了當時黑書第二結局新版到底寫完了沒還是根本還沒動,但我確定的是貞書已經出版了正在宣傳中。肉書一直到2014年我才將它放到皮繩網站上,前13回真的是跌跌撞撞地前進著。這部前十三回不到一萬字的小說,屬於隨時會斷尾的危險名單,我實在太多萬餘字沒寫下去的小說了。2018/12/6發了14回後,開始勢如破竹,破50回紀念是2019/1/29,到了2019/3/10,已經破百回。含101回,字數是近十二萬字了。以我希望十五萬字作收,我只剩下三萬字的空間將最後的訓犬區白趴結束。
肉書的公開網路連載一共一百回。与讀者的互動活動,在2019/3/10午夜十二點前留言者,會私下收到第101回。這些人可以私藏或者分享在自己的任一平台。
目前肉書確定的是會有兩個結局。以軍犬為名的小說都要雙結局就是了?!我一開始設定的是現在排為第二的結局,不過我實在不覺得大家會認為我設定的是Happpy Ending,我從來不覺得主角一定要跟另外一個主角在一塊才是HE。所以在網路連載時,參與連載的讀者們催生了第一結局。這一個結局一定會滿足所有人HE的定義。腐圈有位讀者形容我「這位作者真是太過分了,逆CP就算了,最後還拆CP」。我知道有些朋友跟讀者還沒開始看肉書,私下傳訊裏說著黑書的影響太強大了,後作用力太恐怖,不太敢看肉書,要確定是HE才看。第一結局一定會滿足想要HE的大家的。第二結局目前被我命名為〈肉之側〉是最早設定的結局,想要傳統HE的,就不要再讀〈肉之側〉。無論如何都想知道作者當初怎麼設定的,就可以讀下去。
而昨日突然收到大宇宙傳來的意念,屬於不會寫的第三結局。昨夜很像那日發現黑書有另外一個結局般令人吃驚,蹲在路邊快速筆記然後當天上班大遲到,只是換成我坐在便利商店門口大發呆。如果肉書是交到十年前的我來寫,會變成怎樣?應該會變成100回軍犬發現黑行死在嘔吐物裏,然後面對主人離去的課題。黑家眾各個人怎麼面對這一切。光想是覺得很有趣。不過時間已經過了十年,主人離去的課題已經在黑書裏寫了,黑行恭喜你逃過一劫。如果黑行在第100回死去,黑家最慘的應該會是小夜。阿亮死去時,她至少還可以抱著再見到黑女皇為目標,努力地活著,黑女皇的死,她的人生也跟著毀滅了。她會沉溺悲傷,保不住她跟阿財的關係。第二慘是黑軍犬,過繼到鬼家而不斷面對主人離去的課題。第三是黑鴉,會保不住自己跟小飛的關係。冥女王會回到就只是把SM當成工作而已,對石頭的感情會變淡。小亮跟小谷會過去這關,死爸爸都能過了死叔叔就不算什麼了。ヒカル回到無聊的家庭主婦,目黑變回假S繼續騙女M永遠不會滿足。鬼睿遲早會跟阿良分手,導致鬼家名存實亡。晝司白一家獨大,小白應該會變得更狂妄自大吧。第三結局在此留下標記,如果十年二十年若干年後,我變不出新把戲寫不出新小說時就來寫這個肉書第三結局。
最後要感謝Commander D.願意讓我寫入肉書,強化了小說世界与現實世界的鏈結。只要你願意,踏入Commander D./紅樓二樓司令,也許類似黑行鬼睿晝司白的S/主人就坐在旁邊,軍犬小夜目黑的M/奴隸圍繞在周遭,不管你是要當一個觀察者,一旁默默看著發生什麼或者跳下玩耍。
Enjoy it.
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